TALK of A SOUL~

Salahkah aku untuk pentingkan diri sikit saja demi penuhi impian dan amanah ibu bapa aku
yang belum tentu dapat aku usahakan sepenuhnya???
Salahkah aku untuk terus jaga perasaan semua...tapi aku sendiri....

Pilihan. Kita selalu punya banyak pilihan. Terpulang pada kita nak buat pilihan yang mana satu. Tapi adakalanya, keadaan sekeliling terlalu memberi kesan sampai kita tak punya ruang untuk berfikir dan buat pilihan. Ok, mungkin ramai yang terlalu faham, jadi buat apa nak cakap lagi. Memang diam itu bukan cara yang betul, tapi buat saja bila tiba-tiba kita tak punya jawapan. Mungkin kita hanya mampu ikut saja keadaan. Itu pun belum tentu dapat puaskan hati semua orang.

mana taknya minggu dpan ada 3 tests + 3 projects submission...
auwww...pening2!

Herm. This is just an addition to my previous post. For so sudden, my insecure feeling starts to collide with the other feelings. OH NO! Frankly speaking, I don't really like this new environment, but who cares? Just be quiet, right? That's it, I feel like losing something from my heart, blooming the deep-seated heebie-jeebies inside. Now, I really, really realized that I can't afford to lose the eyes and the smile. Oh My GOD, help. Give me the courage and patience, please! -huhu-

I got irritated. Simply bcoz of the LAN internet connection in my residential college. Extremely BAD! Can you imagine life in UTP without google, gmail, gtalk n blogspot? Those sites are only able when being accessed by wireless connection. But, my room is just at ground floor, so, the chance of getting wireless connection is very LOW! Of course, it is so hard for me to find informations on my assignments and so on, to download files and to blogging. -sigh-

I do really wonder what does MPP do to handle this situation. They should become the student's rep in terms of welfare right? What actions have they taken to tackle this issue? It's been quite a time the students are facing with this internet connection problems and this give effects on our study. No actions have been taken I guessed, as the internet is getting worse. -sough-

I got stressed up. Maybe this is not too crystal clear for you all to see. But deep inside my head, already screwed up with so many things to be handled in the nearest time period. With 4 more projects to go, assignments, events and other commitment, I do really need to divide my time equally and accordingly. It's too challenging to become a top scorer. My family expectation is quite high, and this means that I need to maintain or preferrredly to improve my academis performance. sabar ja la. -sob2-

Somehow, I could feel the sense of misery. It's only a week after the mid-sem break, but I started to miss my mama, my abah, my che pe'ah and my home. This longing keeps lingering. on me -huwaa-

Luckily, I have my second family here. My brothers and sisters. Be with them, I can easily be happy, for sure. That's why when I'm in the middle of something or when I need to run from those haywires, I choose to hang around with them. Even for one or two hours makan2 at Sitik. Ah-ha! Plus, I watch movies with them. Happy. There I could find my source of inspiration, the eyes and the smile. That could keep the smile on my face, extremely sure on this! -ahakz!- ;D